my entry today has nothing to do with the title above. just the fact lately i've been having this self issue with myself. at the back of my head, i think i've been not thinking about what i shouldn't be thinking but somehow the thought of not thinking it had made me overthink about it more and more which is making me go crazy.
i know. it doesn't make sense.
i promised myself that i wanna be happy this year. whenever the clock strikes 12 on 010120_ _, i'll tell myself that i just wanna forget the past and live my life happily. apparently i've been doing this just like the other previous years. and failed big time.
there'll be moments in life where i decided to spare a couple of hours, maybe more than a couple of hours just to think about this particular someone. the particular someone who had made me feel happy and worth waking up in the morning. and that particular someone who also had the power to make me scared to face whatever that we had gone thru towards the end with another particular someone hence the why i'm not able to be having serious conversations with anyone.
it's not a good feeling and i don't like to feel fucked up cuz it hurts.
fourteenthree. i'll always remember and i hope that particular someone remembers it too. deep down in that particular someone's soul.
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